I miss this girl. And I still remember how we used to spend every fucking day with each other that even our group of girls thought we were lesbian. I could pour everything I thought of with her. Knowing that I can trust her. Then I had to mess all these up and now we're so distant. The things I do that I can never forgive myself.
I honestly think all I am ever good at is just messing up everyone's life. Hopeless.
Previous week has been so much to do! Though I said I wanted to work, nobody is fucking hiring. God. White Collar Boxing the other night would probably be one of the best events ever. I so prefer Western than Asians. Though I'm Asian - so I'm not racist or whatever shit. STOP JUDGING LIKE AN ASIAN. I'd really like to start life totally from scratch.
Spending more awesome time with my boy and he said the sweetest things ever. There's nothing not to love about this boy! Had one of the best nights and it was literally written all over my face. Well, that's one thing I can't hide.
New found realization - If I'm ever disturbed during my deep slumber, like fucking endlessly, I get so angsty and millions of cravings. Ultimate dream house, serene surroundings. No disturbance during the most important hours of my day. I am such a fussy asshole. And I really got to stop swearing so much. It's as if I have this annual season to swear like I've never sworn my whole life.
Next holiday, I MUST GET A BETTER JOB. Period.
Hopefully this Friday I can get off reality for a while. Until then, Glee it baby! Finished 2 seasons alr.
Ever since a few days ago when I started to watch Glee from season 1, I've been singing so much! Almost turning everything into a song! GLEE! :)
Today has been a really down day. I will do something useful tomorrow. I must. Been doing nothing useful this holidays...
Stayed over with the girls two days ago. :) Had a fail movie marathon. Only managed to watch 2! Painted nails and sang the whole night long. Ended the night with looking at photos of birthday celebrations! Took this photo with them girls too! :)
Went shopping the next day but I had to leave early due to some uncalled for pain. A pain that nearly caused me to pass out. Horrible.
I wish I had more days like this..
So much emotions each time that I decide to blog. But I'm gna keep them inside. Where they belong.
Said I wanted to blog 2 - 3 days ago but I've been really busy! Sooooo, holiday is going awesome! :) Just came back from school from Master E competition and Alison and I made it through another round!!! It was a whole day event and yeah! Not bad. If only every school day was similar to today's. That'd be real great! Well, next round would be in April and in front of the whole DBA!!! Stage fright much.
In any way, last week was awesome! After last paper, had dinner opposite beauty world with all those Indian food!!!!!! Made my way to stay with love and had supper. Prata, more Indian food!!!!! With the least amount of sleep, had a long day. But great day it was.
Ended the night at class chalet. Went there a little too late... Shops were all closed due to some maintenance and ended up with only cup noodles to eat. The night was crazy! Like really. Had another few hours of sleep before the rest of the class came! Kim and Alison went home to rest... SO GOOD LUH! Survived the rest of the day eating, watching This Means War, buying anklet, Mahjong. Had to take a rest while the class went for cycling. Had a short rest, waited for the friggin Pizza which took like 2 - 3 hours to come?!?! Wtf. I was dead hungry! By that time, Mrs Loh and her daughter came! Adorable kid! :) Pizza that took forever to come couldn't fill any one of us.
Chalet chalet. Stayed up the whole night and camped at Macs waiting for their breakfast to start. LOL. Had a great long talk with my dear boy. So in love with him! ♥♥♥ Done with breakfast, finally packed our bags and went back home to have a good rest since 3 nights! I wonder how I was able to last 4 days with barely any sleep! It was unimaginable! I LOVE IT! HAHA.
That evening, celebrated Mel's 18th! :) We're all so grown now and it's really heartwarming that we're as close. :) I love my girls and I always will. Caught Jack & Jill later that night while Mel went ahem ahem! Hehe.
Worked on Friday which gave me aches until today! Went to help LY with her portfolio on Saturday. :) Had a great time though. Spent Sunday watching movies waiting for someone to get his lazy ass up! Watched This Means War again yesterday! AWESOME AWESOME!
Going to fill this holidays with movies! Check u cool people out soon!
Life never stopped fucking me up this year. It's just a shit-hole that builds up. As I grow to learn more about myself and that other half, the differences has become my problem. An issue so huge that I cannot come to a solution. Yes, it's two sided, but this is what I feel.
The little things or actions that matters but all these gestures have come to an end. It's become such a burden that it didn't seem to affect you anymore. Those sweet gestures were once what you made it seem promising. The endurance of all the rejections that made you stronger and more certain. That hunger to get from just someone worthless to someone so significant. It all took you relentless efforts to break that barrier - that barrier to prove me wrong. I fell; and I did so with all my heart.
Little gestures, they stopped. Incidents that occur, they made me doubt myself; and sometimes, even you. Fallback, they taught me what I should have done. Lessons learnt, they reminded me how important you are.
Seemed like it was almost one sided, recently. Give. Giving is not all, what do you take back? I've always wondered if you appreciated the things I did for you. Wondered, when will you see that I intended well? You love me as much as you say you do, but do nothing to show it?
It has been tiring; for you have chased for so long. But it's also tiring, to have spent hours waiting and waiting. Wait. Has that ever happened to you? Waiting for an endless race? Just a simple reply, or an initiative to take time out to be earlier - to wait for me?
Reactions have changed. You have your problems too. I'm no longer that significant. Your hunger; it has been satisfied. You're done with what I had to offer. The endless race was coming to an end. Nothing seem to be going right. All I could was keep going forward while looking back. Anticipating for the fresher days we had, what once seem to be envied by all.
No regrets. We know what we had going on, but we wouldn't know how it will be. Living in the past is not something to be doing but living in the present is. But, have you forgotten how I, once, was all you wanted? The way you'll embrace me each time we met? It all seem to be fading from you, while I give them back.
You stopped doing things for me. Your affections are what, now seem so weak. I believe that if I keep giving my all, I'll be appreciated. Until that day comes, I'll continue doing my best.
Do you see me the way I look at you? That happiness each time I stared into your eyes. Admiring you as you sat solemnly when we ran out of topics. Turning from what seem like your flaws, to what only meant perfection. I've lost you; someday when I pissed you off.
I shall try my best to make an effort to blog more this year! First year is officially going to end come Monday. Getting results on 20th March and yep, pretty much an entire year is gone!
Hopefully Year 2's syllabus won't be too tough! Having modules like Travel and Tourism Practice, Business Law (omg), F&B Management and some others! Sounds super interesting and so looking forward to them! But hoping they aren't tough..... mmm. Immersion Programme soon! Can't wait for it either!
As much as second year seems promising, I'm definitely not looking forward to school reopening. Just want to have holidays and holidays and holidays! Gen-Ed 2, I want awesome classmates again! *plsplsplspls*
2012 hasn't been the best year I've ever had and nothing seems to go right. The best will come... soon!
Strong urge to blog two days ago; of all the emotions that have built up over the past few months. The pain, wishes that don't come true and a whole series of other occurrences. But again, the saying goes "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger". I think being all emo and shit makes me do self reflections more and more. Each time that I look into something that causes me misery and pain, I think more of what should have been done. Life is such a bitch sometimes.
Fears that constantly haunt me has always been such an issue for me. Insecurities. Pain. Worries. Getting more sensitive that I've put on some extra weight; mainly due to one person. Life.
Looking at the bright side, year 1 in poly is officially over since 2 weeks ago! Ended the last day of school with a fun presentation, camwhoring in class and then celebrating Leslie's birthday. It's sad to see how first year came by as so fun and now it's gone. All the awesome teachers we had.. Mr George is probably one of the best teachers ever! Made us all bolder than we already are. Fun and exciting lessons each time. :) Luckily there isn't going to be a change of classes for 3 years. Meeting new people, again. Making project group, again. Familiarizing with classmates, again. And so much more, if you get what I mean. Hm, I'm not that sociable, I know.
Class shot! DTRM 04 AY 2011/2012 + Jia Hao
Not forgetting Ms Sylvia whom has been such an awesome accounts teacher the whole year! LOVE HER.
Celebrating Leslie's birthday that night, making him at a total loss for word! Trolling him when surprising him with his "cake" as well! Haha. "Heard that you didn't want a cake.... PROBLEM?" Epic moments bringing him to Aston's. Then Orgo after that where Nat was totally hilarious! Great night.
Following week, had Nihon Mura buffet on Valentine's and it's crazy considering that I can't eat much at night now. Stuffing myself with raw salmon and sushi and all things awesome! Note to self: Buffet only for lunch! Night buffets are totally not worth the price.
Next day, I was a year older too. I really felt a lot older now. Literally. Growing up each year never seem to be such a problem until it hit me that I'm legal. And the constant wishes reminding me that I'm legal. Turning into a young adult. It was so real. They say, you'll wish to stay a teenager for ever; how true. However, had the best birthday celebrations ever! Poly mates, my girls and coming would be my babies since 11! Teehee. Really thankful for all my friends. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
It's a brand new year and a brand new start! I couldn't thank God more for the people who are always there for me. The times that I feel so bad, they come in miraculously and fix me up. Many resolutions this year and hopefully I can achieve it! Hwaiting!
I miss this girl. And I still remember how we used to spend every fucking day with each other that even our group of girls thought we were lesbian. I could pour everything I thought of with her. Knowing that I can trust her. Then I had to mess all these up and now we're so distant. The things I do that I can never forgive myself.
I honestly think all I am ever good at is just messing up everyone's life. Hopeless.
Previous week has been so much to do! Though I said I wanted to work, nobody is fucking hiring. God. White Collar Boxing the other night would probably be one of the best events ever. I so prefer Western than Asians. Though I'm Asian - so I'm not racist or whatever shit. STOP JUDGING LIKE AN ASIAN. I'd really like to start life totally from scratch.
Spending more awesome time with my boy and he said the sweetest things ever. There's nothing not to love about this boy! Had one of the best nights and it was literally written all over my face. Well, that's one thing I can't hide.
New found realization - If I'm ever disturbed during my deep slumber, like fucking endlessly, I get so angsty and millions of cravings. Ultimate dream house, serene surroundings. No disturbance during the most important hours of my day. I am such a fussy asshole. And I really got to stop swearing so much. It's as if I have this annual season to swear like I've never sworn my whole life.
Next holiday, I MUST GET A BETTER JOB. Period.
Hopefully this Friday I can get off reality for a while. Until then, Glee it baby! Finished 2 seasons alr.
Ever since a few days ago when I started to watch Glee from season 1, I've been singing so much! Almost turning everything into a song! GLEE! :)
Today has been a really down day. I will do something useful tomorrow. I must. Been doing nothing useful this holidays...
Stayed over with the girls two days ago. :) Had a fail movie marathon. Only managed to watch 2! Painted nails and sang the whole night long. Ended the night with looking at photos of birthday celebrations! Took this photo with them girls too! :)
Went shopping the next day but I had to leave early due to some uncalled for pain. A pain that nearly caused me to pass out. Horrible.
I wish I had more days like this..
So much emotions each time that I decide to blog. But I'm gna keep them inside. Where they belong.
Said I wanted to blog 2 - 3 days ago but I've been really busy! Sooooo, holiday is going awesome! :) Just came back from school from Master E competition and Alison and I made it through another round!!! It was a whole day event and yeah! Not bad. If only every school day was similar to today's. That'd be real great! Well, next round would be in April and in front of the whole DBA!!! Stage fright much.
In any way, last week was awesome! After last paper, had dinner opposite beauty world with all those Indian food!!!!!! Made my way to stay with love and had supper. Prata, more Indian food!!!!! With the least amount of sleep, had a long day. But great day it was.
Ended the night at class chalet. Went there a little too late... Shops were all closed due to some maintenance and ended up with only cup noodles to eat. The night was crazy! Like really. Had another few hours of sleep before the rest of the class came! Kim and Alison went home to rest... SO GOOD LUH! Survived the rest of the day eating, watching This Means War, buying anklet, Mahjong. Had to take a rest while the class went for cycling. Had a short rest, waited for the friggin Pizza which took like 2 - 3 hours to come?!?! Wtf. I was dead hungry! By that time, Mrs Loh and her daughter came! Adorable kid! :) Pizza that took forever to come couldn't fill any one of us.
Chalet chalet. Stayed up the whole night and camped at Macs waiting for their breakfast to start. LOL. Had a great long talk with my dear boy. So in love with him! ♥♥♥ Done with breakfast, finally packed our bags and went back home to have a good rest since 3 nights! I wonder how I was able to last 4 days with barely any sleep! It was unimaginable! I LOVE IT! HAHA.
That evening, celebrated Mel's 18th! :) We're all so grown now and it's really heartwarming that we're as close. :) I love my girls and I always will. Caught Jack & Jill later that night while Mel went ahem ahem! Hehe.
Worked on Friday which gave me aches until today! Went to help LY with her portfolio on Saturday. :) Had a great time though. Spent Sunday watching movies waiting for someone to get his lazy ass up! Watched This Means War again yesterday! AWESOME AWESOME!
Going to fill this holidays with movies! Check u cool people out soon!
Life never stopped fucking me up this year. It's just a shit-hole that builds up. As I grow to learn more about myself and that other half, the differences has become my problem. An issue so huge that I cannot come to a solution. Yes, it's two sided, but this is what I feel.
The little things or actions that matters but all these gestures have come to an end. It's become such a burden that it didn't seem to affect you anymore. Those sweet gestures were once what you made it seem promising. The endurance of all the rejections that made you stronger and more certain. That hunger to get from just someone worthless to someone so significant. It all took you relentless efforts to break that barrier - that barrier to prove me wrong. I fell; and I did so with all my heart.
Little gestures, they stopped. Incidents that occur, they made me doubt myself; and sometimes, even you. Fallback, they taught me what I should have done. Lessons learnt, they reminded me how important you are.
Seemed like it was almost one sided, recently. Give. Giving is not all, what do you take back? I've always wondered if you appreciated the things I did for you. Wondered, when will you see that I intended well? You love me as much as you say you do, but do nothing to show it?
It has been tiring; for you have chased for so long. But it's also tiring, to have spent hours waiting and waiting. Wait. Has that ever happened to you? Waiting for an endless race? Just a simple reply, or an initiative to take time out to be earlier - to wait for me?
Reactions have changed. You have your problems too. I'm no longer that significant. Your hunger; it has been satisfied. You're done with what I had to offer. The endless race was coming to an end. Nothing seem to be going right. All I could was keep going forward while looking back. Anticipating for the fresher days we had, what once seem to be envied by all.
No regrets. We know what we had going on, but we wouldn't know how it will be. Living in the past is not something to be doing but living in the present is. But, have you forgotten how I, once, was all you wanted? The way you'll embrace me each time we met? It all seem to be fading from you, while I give them back.
You stopped doing things for me. Your affections are what, now seem so weak. I believe that if I keep giving my all, I'll be appreciated. Until that day comes, I'll continue doing my best.
Do you see me the way I look at you? That happiness each time I stared into your eyes. Admiring you as you sat solemnly when we ran out of topics. Turning from what seem like your flaws, to what only meant perfection. I've lost you; someday when I pissed you off.
I shall try my best to make an effort to blog more this year! First year is officially going to end come Monday. Getting results on 20th March and yep, pretty much an entire year is gone!
Hopefully Year 2's syllabus won't be too tough! Having modules like Travel and Tourism Practice, Business Law (omg), F&B Management and some others! Sounds super interesting and so looking forward to them! But hoping they aren't tough..... mmm. Immersion Programme soon! Can't wait for it either!
As much as second year seems promising, I'm definitely not looking forward to school reopening. Just want to have holidays and holidays and holidays! Gen-Ed 2, I want awesome classmates again! *plsplsplspls*
2012 hasn't been the best year I've ever had and nothing seems to go right. The best will come... soon!
Strong urge to blog two days ago; of all the emotions that have built up over the past few months. The pain, wishes that don't come true and a whole series of other occurrences. But again, the saying goes "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger". I think being all emo and shit makes me do self reflections more and more. Each time that I look into something that causes me misery and pain, I think more of what should have been done. Life is such a bitch sometimes.
Fears that constantly haunt me has always been such an issue for me. Insecurities. Pain. Worries. Getting more sensitive that I've put on some extra weight; mainly due to one person. Life.
Looking at the bright side, year 1 in poly is officially over since 2 weeks ago! Ended the last day of school with a fun presentation, camwhoring in class and then celebrating Leslie's birthday. It's sad to see how first year came by as so fun and now it's gone. All the awesome teachers we had.. Mr George is probably one of the best teachers ever! Made us all bolder than we already are. Fun and exciting lessons each time. :) Luckily there isn't going to be a change of classes for 3 years. Meeting new people, again. Making project group, again. Familiarizing with classmates, again. And so much more, if you get what I mean. Hm, I'm not that sociable, I know.
Class shot! DTRM 04 AY 2011/2012 + Jia Hao
Not forgetting Ms Sylvia whom has been such an awesome accounts teacher the whole year! LOVE HER.
Celebrating Leslie's birthday that night, making him at a total loss for word! Trolling him when surprising him with his "cake" as well! Haha. "Heard that you didn't want a cake.... PROBLEM?" Epic moments bringing him to Aston's. Then Orgo after that where Nat was totally hilarious! Great night.
Following week, had Nihon Mura buffet on Valentine's and it's crazy considering that I can't eat much at night now. Stuffing myself with raw salmon and sushi and all things awesome! Note to self: Buffet only for lunch! Night buffets are totally not worth the price.
Next day, I was a year older too. I really felt a lot older now. Literally. Growing up each year never seem to be such a problem until it hit me that I'm legal. And the constant wishes reminding me that I'm legal. Turning into a young adult. It was so real. They say, you'll wish to stay a teenager for ever; how true. However, had the best birthday celebrations ever! Poly mates, my girls and coming would be my babies since 11! Teehee. Really thankful for all my friends. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
It's a brand new year and a brand new start! I couldn't thank God more for the people who are always there for me. The times that I feel so bad, they come in miraculously and fix me up. Many resolutions this year and hopefully I can achieve it! Hwaiting!
